One small step

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Starting to build my own self confidence from scratch.

Ok, my primary love language is “words of affirmation” according to that book “the five love languages”. Now, I rarely, if ever get them from outside sources. I mean it.

This will be the start of me trying to fill my own love bank and be responsible for my own happiness. I am not responsible for anyone else’s happiness or emotional well being, except those of my children until they become able to do so for themselves.

My standards are my own. If I wish to raise them, I shall do so on my terms.

I am good enough.

I am smart enough.

Nobody’s opinion of me matters except my own. I have spent my whole life bending over backwards trying to make other people happy, and in the end, it has left me a complete and utter wreck. I have been taught, if you love someone, you do everything in your power to make them happy. Well what are you supposed to do when the other person refuses to be happy? What if that other person expects you to do all you can to make them happy and nothing is ever good enough to reach that unattainable goal? How many more hoops? How much longer should I dance for?

It ends today. No more hoops, no more song and dance. I do things my way to my standards, for myself. I’m done tying myself in knots.

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About Monica Baker

Stay at home mom trying to get back into the workforce and blogging about it. Nothing super exciting really. But if you insist on reading go right ahead. If anything feel free to leave tips!

Posted on January 13, 2014, in Uncategorized and tagged , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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